How would you react? What would you look like in person? What would your personality be like? Were you small or big for your age? Could you walk? Were you loud like your brother and sister or a calm addition to our family? Would you bond? Would we bond? What was your favorite food, favorite toy? How did you like to be soothed? Did you like to sleep? In what position? Would you know how much you were loved?
We never could have imagined the love we felt the instant we saw you. It reminded me so much of the day your brother and sister were born. I locked eyes with you, touched your hands and consoled you by gently rocking while stroking your head. The terror you felt is nothing we could have prepared ourselves for. I am so so sorry you had to go through the pain you went through. No person should ever have to experience what you experienced. You are brave my daughter.
It has now been a year. I can now answer all of the questions we had that January afternoon. I love watching you each day and seeing more and more of your personality unfold. I am certain that God created you for our family. I am just sorry that you had to go through what you did so God could get us to you. Your first mommy, your tummy mommy made a very brave decision so that I could be your forever mommy. I am so grateful for her. In my eyes she is a hero.
Your forever family day will always be a favorite day of the year for me. I don't ever want to forget what you went though a year ago but, I don't want to dwell on it. Because, that baby is not you. It has been a miracle this year watching YOU unfold. You are mighty, you are spicy, you are loud, you are loving, you are silly, you are stubborn and you are a miracle.
So to celebrate you we decided to indulge in your favorite "cocholate" (Chocolate) with a trip to the local French Bakery. We let you pick out any item you want and eat until your heart was content. I loved our day together just as I do all of our days together. You lighten our world baby girl. You are so very loved.